Some days that are rough or tough you just wished to finish.
Another blank day...
I have not much to say because I don't know what else to say about what was going on.
I just know I was in a denial stage that everything that has happened will eventually be ok.
Even waiting for that person to come back to my life and say that it was just a misunderstanding...but waiting sometimes takes a toll in the soul especially if you knew deep down at the back of your head things will not go back to the way they were before and that's just a product of false hope to be positive.
I mean before I used to look at people and wonder how much pain they've dealt with when it comes to heartbreak and sometimes we are too young to realize yet too old not to know that at some point the person that we thought will not disappoint us will surely be the one who will.
We are not perfect either I mean I'm 100% sure I've hurt and disappointed people who means a lot to me the most.
But, to stay in their life is a choice people make and some people just choose to give up easily than others because they don't know what they want in life.
They don't know how to hold on to something valuable so they choose to let go because letting go is the same as caring for somebody and loving them from a distance.
I really don't know the answer or the reason behind it.
I'm still struck and left in such a wonder why people would do such thing and at the end wonder if it's all worth it.
I guess it doesn't matter if you talk or spend time with them almost every day if the love is not strong enough and well it isn't.
So, is it worth it all the pain that it has caused?
I really asked myself what is the definition of love for me?
I always end up circling and going back to my original answer: "as long as someone accepts me for me and loves me whole heartedly then that's enough."
I mean don't you want to be love by someone who loves you as much as you love them back and never refuses to leave your side despite of the odds.
But, I'm still young and I've got a lot of way to go so a heartbreak is just a heartbreak and I learned that if someone wants to go let them go.
