Let's countdown to 14 days left before Christmas of 2013 and I was still feeling down, but that's OK. I think I filled myself watching anime or shows or whatever was available during the nights and work myself during the mornings.
First, the feeling of a different routine from a previous one feels as not the same as before but there is nothing that I can do but accept it.
I mean before I was so nervous and I still don't have any answers.
I think that was the worst was not knowing and what's was going on.
Everyday was just a bad dream happening and you have no escape for it.
I mean I should have known long time ago that it was over, but I'll be honest I umaasa pa din ako na maayos yung mga bagay nuon sa amin.
I should have been more smarter and realize that there are just things that are DONE.
Man, on the contrary you can't ask anybody to man up and take responsibility and give you answers, I guess you just have to respect their decisions that they can't and their not responsible for your heart breaking.
I learned to be cold that time and to revive my heart, but then I didn't realize there is something forming in me... an unimaginable anger I will carry on when 2014 comes that only I know when will it be set off.
At least I just tell myself I got to experience falling in love, the latter I didn't want that.
