Having a difficult time finishing the last days of 2013 due to a busy day and sometimes tiring day at work and other circumstances of keeping up with a positive outlook when it comes to life.
As far as I can remember I was still being thankful to God that even though I've been through the last 7 weeks of what I called was hell due to the pain I was experiencing that time...I was just glad that the person who I thought of was special to me was or was somewhat still there.
I'm just glad we were talking...I don't know about her though... She may have different perspective about it.
Now come to think that I work during that day and in the evening got invited to watch the movie "Frozen".
Until now I can still remember the events of that night... I can't believe that I was able to say yes just because but anyways I did went to the movies...Awkward a little bit..
How could you say that you watched a movie with your ex and the rest of your ex's friends...
One thing I can remember though was when the person I used to date wore my anniversary present that time...Yes, I was caught off guard and I was confused.
I didn't know why my ex wore it but going back I should have said something but instead kept my mouth shut because I have no idea what the hell is going on.
Few weeks later I've been told that by my ex that it was a sign that we could have been together again..
Well, thanks for the heads up...I'm quite slow when it comes to those things...
What a low blow move I would say...
But, it's too late now I don't have anything to say about it... My ex probably threw it away... a whole day of hard work put it into that one bracelet...
I really don't want to think about it what happened after that..
It's sad when you think about the past sometimes and how it turned you into somebody that is different now.
Lately, I've been so impatient of feeling that feeling before that I've grown quite the impression as to when will it be my turn again..
Seems like we all get love twisted at times.
And sometimes it's just right there but in the end we blew up and mess it up ourselves...
I remember going home and sleeping with my smile from ear to ear just thinking that if it didn't work out I'm glad we are friends... but I was wrong. I'm always proven wrong...
Sighs...
I wonder sometimes how are you doing, but then I realize you must have grown this hate towards me and every single action I did.
You pushed my buttons and tested it and you've won, because I turned into someone who nobody likes anymore.
I feel so gray.
