I thought I should say something or jot something down.
I've just been going through my demons again.
I've been acting all mopey lately.
Due to the fact that I haven't figure out what the hell is wrong with me.
I think I'm losing people in my life or I've already lost them...either way I think that's what kills the most.
I think people don't understand what being sensitive really is.
Sighs.
It's been two years and I still haven't finish this year. I mean how could you not when the past is something that haunts you every damn day.
I mean you always question yourself now...
What is my purpose?
Why am I here?
Why don;'t they understand?
Am I being taken for granted?
Or I'm just being hit by an unknown force that I can't seem to let go of?
Been depressed lately to be honest.
I think sometimes you think you've got friends, but really you only got maybe 3-4.
Maybe that's what growing up means..
It means quality not quantity.
I really hate to see myself in this dark shade, but lately I can't seem to get away with.
I think it's something that chases me wherever I go.
I always ask myself at what age did I lose my compassion?
When did I change and why did I stop being kind.
When you've been through so much during the last two years I couldn't seem to figure out how much I've changed...
Sometimes for the better and other times worse.
Yeah, I now have regrets compared to two years ago,but most of my regrets stems from "revenge".
I was boldly honest and I was brutal.
I thought I was fueled by being broken, I really wasn't.
I was fueled because I'm impatient.
I'm impatient to mend my broken heart and I couldn't because I don't know where the hell did it go wrong.
Now, I told myself I'm going to cut social media and take a break with it and find myself and regain the old me along with the new me so it is in sync with the present.
I mean good luck to me.
