Drake performs to I'm on one.
One of my favorite songs that's not part of any album.
Drake sings a little bit of the song "Migos"
Drake sings to the song "love me" with 2 chainz.
I asked myself how do I end 2013 with a new ray of hope every day until the last month ends for that year.
I honestly was just waiting for the days to pass by and for the waiting period to be over... I think it was already the 4th week I was cooled off or you cooled me off and I was still waiting for a response as if we were going to get back together because for sure we won't.
I should have seen that coming and going back to the troubled past that led me up to this point of a heartbreak I should have not only thought about my heart being broken but yours too...
But how could you not think about someone who broke your heart with the possibility that their heart is broken too...because I had no idea what is going through your head or your heart.
I can only talk about what happened to me after that.
Days and weeks of waiting and good friends asking me what I'm going to do next.
I really have no idea.
I mean it was heading downhill right?
It was like an avalanche just waiting to go down the hill and crash and explode to tiny little flakes again.
Looking back I shouldn't have let it linger longer I should have ask for my explanation because I owe it to myself to find out what is the real reason why you broke my heart...but I was such a coward at confronting people because the truth hurts and I couldn't take anymore of the hurt.
I remembered always falling asleep and waking up at three a.m. just thinking the possibility that you could be thinking of me or maybe sending me a text that I should reply ASAP just like what you did during the night I was sleeping over at my friend's house after our Christmas party...but never did you replied back that you wanted to talk after that.
Maybe it was my fault for not replying ASAP, but understand and respect that I have my own time too and you control almost everything since I didn't reply back as quickly as you thought I should be.
I didn't ignore you.
I would never and you knew that.
But, just like before you never gave me a time frame and chance to prepare myself to reply and maybe fix it.
But I guess there was nothing really to fix in the first place if you didn't wanted too...
Who I was kidding.
Sleepless nights accompanied by how much I miss you and nightmares.
It was all part of that void and that extreme feeling of being rejected and getting your heart broken.
It's like a punishment that you should be on exile island.
Because that's how it felt even until now sometimes.
